Week 4 asked us to focus on relationships. I think these are the hardest part for my ego to deal with in my life because I can’t control other people’s actions. However, I can control my thoughts and how I react to others so it was great to focus on this in week 4. I read this week of chapter, 6 weeks ago at the end of January, but I think it’s weird & perfect time that I’m revisiting the manifestation and journaling exercises now in March.
The concept of love whether it’s parental, friendship or romantic love is based on dependency and lack. Society seems to have created this need to seek completion in others vs. feeling whole on our own. The ego creates fear in relationships. For me personally it’s easy to explain that I have a fear of abandonment after the last devastating relationship break up but that is a fear that I keep projecting in my mind vs. it being real. If I keep projecting this fear then I’m going to keep receiving that as I will carry it with me into new relationships.
A part of the introduction to this week of chapters that struck me was “you’re not expected to just let go of the ego overnight.” I read week 4, 6 weeks ago and I’m finding now writing the post I need to come back to all the manifestations and remember what I learned about myself because I’m still letting my ego come in and take charge.